"... and your ANGRY eyes, just in case."

i've had a fairly bad day. my mom took away my phone at 3 this morning because she thought i was talking on it when, in fact, i was watching a video that Isla and i made that day on my camera. i had a MAJOR emotional break down in the car this morning after i missed the bus (like so major that Daddy D had to pull over and keep me from hyperventilating too much and passing out like i normally do), i haven't seen my bf in like 3 weeks, my nail polish (which is green currently) is chipping even though i did it like 2 days ago, i have 2 debate cases to write, i have a 10 minute skit to memorize that i haven't even started on, i got no $$ for christmas so i have no $$ at all, i can't have a job during the year to make $$ so i have to ask the parental D's for it and they get mad because i "never have money and am always asking for it from them, even though they don't all allow me have a job. i'm really pissed, and i just want to curl up in a little ball, cry, not eat anything, sleep, and feel something (hell anything) other than pain and depression. i just want to wake up from this nasty nightmare that has become my life. i want the pain to be gone; the depression to end. i want to enjoy myself again. i need to see color, feel warmth, act happy. i guess all i want right now is someone to cry on and someone to hug me and tell me i'm wanted.