a time to relax

finally, i have my break. i can sleep or not sleep, eat or not eat, do what i please or go along for the ride. life should be filled with more fun and fulfillment. i hope everyone had a great new years and i also hope everyone is as happy about 2009 ending as i was.... i HATED IT! it was totally useless and unhelpful. on a brighter note im looking at colleges and oklahoma state, ohio state, peace, and Sewanee top my list. each have things that i deem valuable and each have their draw backs. one of my biggest yearnings when it comes to colleges, is a decent room that doesnt look like a prison cell. i cant tell you how many ive looked at that have all of 5 feet of floor space other than where the bed is. i at least want somewhere to put my stuff and still be able to turn around comfortably.

on the same note, i was looking at, i believe, oklahoma state and they have a dorm building with a "no substance" first floor (ie no alcohol) (3 story building). the main point of this they say, is to keep people from coming in drunk in the middle of the night and disturbing their roommates (if ur drunk u arent allowed in so they say). this is my thought on the matter: why the hell would u put this on the first floor? why not the third floor since everyone on the first floor currently is required to be sober and dont drunkenly stumble up 2 flights of stairs. have these first floor people have any idea how difficult that is to do? i bet the third floor people would be more than glad to switch floors with the first floorers since it makes much much more sense to do this. so what if the first floor people complain about the 2 flights of stairs they have to climb up? they're probably going to live longer than their drunken counter parts, so a little exercise can't be all that bad on a day to day basis. oh and there's a BONUS for the janitors: no throw up on the second flights of stairs anymore! why didnt they think of this?

off the topic of drunken stair climbing, i must say i've come to a rather harsh realization about people who are, as i call them, "attention whores". these are individuals that have either low self-esteem or neglectful parents or always have some problem or another and seek to, through any means possible, get attention through what ever means possible. my realization on this matter? they are incredibly lonely and many times isolated people who, though they have some friends, dont know how to have a deep friendship or relationship without being extremely clingy or problematic (in order to get more attention). we all have these people in our lives. we maybe one ourselves. part of my realization (other than he fact that i dont give a rats ass what attention they think they're getting from me, they aren't getting any) is that i PITY these people. i pity that they are so down and attention whore-ish that they need to go outside themselves to destruct any sane and normal thing in their lives so that they can get attention from it. i pity that they are lonely on many occasions (but then i realize they did this themselves and that its their own fault and my sympathetic nature seems to deteriorate slightly). but do you really want to know when i feel the most pity for these people? when they try to wreck havoc on me, my family, my life, my general well being. that they need to destruct and destroy and cling so much that they try this with me. i know it's hard for some of you to believe, but i wasn't born yesterday. the second you attempt this craziness on me i swear the repercussions will be bad for you.

next piece of business, i have come to the realization that Disney wishes everyone to think of black people stereotypically. their new movie "the princess and the frog" or w.e the heck that thing is called is the BIGGEST smack in the face to educated colored people. i'm sorry to say this, but, at least have someone who doesn't sound like your stereotypical colored person on TV doing the princess' voice. you could have at least used someone articulate and punctual. i find it insulting that they have done this. Disney, i will never see a movie with a black princess until you make the female sound educated. it infuriates me!!!

well im going to try to relax and not be so angry by watching jaws. im looking at this as a beginning rather than an end.